I can totally relate – I was abandoned one evening by my ex husband. I was left feeling numb and totally worthless; It took a few days for me to actually digest the reality – I remember a small thing like him filling up the petrol was now left for me to do. That sounds weird but i depended on him so much. I broke down at the local petrol station; not the car but me! A lovely lady ended up consoling me.
My point is do not feel alone or blame yourself. It is totally them. I think if you can try to focus on urself and you are entitled to the crap days. They will happen. You will want to cry your eyes out – there are some great groups on fb – such as the conflicts of life, who got me through a v dark time.
My demented ex-husband left me after a few years of marriage and I honestly didn’t know he had it in him. I’ve been struggling ever since and while I try to move on, I hit roadblock after roadblock, often breaking down at work and running to the bathroom to weep in private. Will I ever get over this? I certainly hope so. When then? It has been nearly eight months and I don’t think I’m through the woods.
I am so sorry to hear of your horrific ordeal. You poor thing. Its messed up to say this but, I feel a slight comfort knowing someone out there can relate to this absolute tsunami I am going through. I feels never ending – sometimes I feel like there is no road to turn and ask why me? whats wrong with me?
How have you managed over the past 8 months, honestly?
I barely know. I’ve tried to stay as busy as I can manage and take comfort in the company of friends and family but it has been an absolute nightmare. I instituted a strict no contact rule that helps because in part it allows my ex to just fade away. But I still miss him like no one’s business. I can’t really win here but somehow I’m still going.