I found out last week that my husband has been cheating on me for years with men and trans gender people. I had absolutely no clue that he might be gay and he admits to having sex with these people but denies being gay. He seems confused about his sexual orientation. We have 2 children and were trying for the third. I found out I was pregnant 3 weeks ago. I always wanted 3 kids but I don’t think I should bring a child into this mess. I feel awful for my 2 children that will have to deal with divorce and wonder why their father is gone, they are too young to understand. I feel drained and depleted of every last ounce of energy. I’m in school working on my masters and I work full time, I also have a small part time job. I haven’t been able to study for my final which is in 2 days. I’ve been working on this degree for years and I can’t let it slip away now. I think I should have an abortion but I’m having so much guilt about it. How can I have a 3rd child on my own, while in school, working and dealing with this. I don’t even think this much stress is good for the fetus. I cry everyday that my kids won’t have a father.
I guess I just need to know that it’s ok to have an abortion in this situation. I feel terrible about it but I don’t think I can physically have another baby right now.